I have contemplated getting a blog for quite some time now, but was always hesitant to just do it. Growing up as a child, I was very shy and would not open up until I felt comfortable enough with someone to do so. As I grew into adulthood, I became more confident. This made it easier to be more outgoing when meeting new people. But the one thing I always kept in silence was my disease. It was an embarrassment and not something you wanted to break the ice with. After seven years of suffering in silence, I am ready to share the reality of having a chronic illness.
The one thing that has remained constant since I was diagnosed, is my passion for writing and its therapeutic effects as a coping mechanism. I have finally come to terms that Crohn's is not something I should be ashamed of because it does not define who I am. I have so much experience, advice, and raw reality to share.
This disease roars its ugly head at the most inopportune moments. Life resembles a roller coaster ride as you are fiercely thrown up and around, upside down, at high speeds with no other choice than to face it head on. Giving up is not an option because this disease is stuck with you forever. Being forced to deal with the pain, anxiety, and fear of the unknown has tested my character in ways I never thought imaginable. But through all of this I have gained a super strength that even surprises myself at times.
From the reality of being in a hospital with good and bad nurses/doctors to the complications this disease can manifest, I am ready to share the honest truth of all my experiences. I have been misunderstood, mistreated, and misguided along the way. Having an illness like Crohn's is exceptionally trying and arduous but it brings a true light to the surface, that you would have never seen otherwise. Crohn's may not define my individuality, but it most definitely contributes to the person I have become.
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