Looks can be deceiving

With Crohn's Disease, like any other chronic illness, you have your good and bad days.  One day you can wake up feeling decent and ready to take on the world, while other days simply getting out of bed becomes one of the most difficult tasks to take on.  Everyone loves to capture the good moments of life through pictures, but what about the bad moments? Photoshop was created because people are so afraid to expose an ugly picture, let alone an ugly moment.  No one wants to share the times we are going through hell and are too sick to care what we look like.  No matter how vain a person is, there is usually one time in life where you felt too sick to give a damn.  With Crohn's, those moments are greatly multiplied. 
I have always taken the time to get ready, (like most women) and love to use makeup to doll myself up.  There are many times when the pain is too immense to care about my looks. Other times I use my physical presentation to disguise the pain I am feeling inside.  I wanted documentation of my illness, and through the years have captured the bad moments in photos.  It is hard for me to look at these pictures, let alone expose them publicly.
The point of this blog is to expose the truth of my illness, and that is what these pictures represent.  They portray the reality of living with Crohn's from the good times to the bad.  Although it is difficult for me to share this, when I proclaimed I would share it all, I meant it.  I want people to realize no matter how good one can look on the outside, disease wreaks havoc on your insides.  People with chronic illnesses may not always look sick because we become masters of disguise.  It's easier to look good than explain what I am experiencing, for fear of not being accepted or understood.  But I have come to realize if you can't handle me at my worst, you will never be deserving of seeing me at my best.

I have posted these pictures in a movie/slideshow on the My Mini Movie page.